WOW! I recomend www.freeminds.org .
Personally I never went through this stage. I left of my own accord only years later to discover the sites on the internet like freeminds so I can't really emphasize with it. All I can say is check out the facts and don't let these get mixed up with the genuine 'apostate' bullshit that you may find. There are many people that hate this organisation (many who have not even had the JW experience) which I can totally understand but there are people that have more knowledge about them. With this knowledge come responsability. Some people use it to bury this organisation but decide to close the truth to suit there agenda. Once you learn to use your own mind you will be able to differentiate between extreme viewpoints on both sides if you want to call them that.
be wise.